Courage rising up
I experienced times in my life where I came close to giving up. Everything was against me. Nothing was going right. One challenge after the other without letting up. No matter what I tried, nothing went right. At times like these you start asking questions like what are you actually doing on earth and won’t it be better not to be here.
At times like these a Bible verse plaster is just too small to cover the hole in your life. And your questions remain unanswered.
Have you been in such a place in your life? Maybe it’s where you are now. Like Monette (not her real name) writes:
This year, I’ve been married for six years. But my marriage is destroying me.
I’d like to start at the beginning and give you a little glimpse into who I am and why I’m struggling.
My mom committed suicide when I was four years old. My father’s third wife broke me and my brother even more by being excessively strict and keeping us away from my dad. My brother developed behavioural problems, which took all the family’s attention.
In the meantime, I had been molested by my grandfather and I later became involved in a relationship with our town’s ‘crown prince’. Behind closed doors he was terribly jealous and possessive. When I finished school, I packed my bags, left everybody behind and tried to survive on my own.
This is just an introductory paragraph of her e-mail to me. The remainder is heart-breaking as you read how she was being abused in her marriage and the negative impact on her behaviour.
Questions remain unanswered.
A few small adjustments won’t cut it here. The healing process will take a long, long time. Verse 11 helps kick-start the process, and the most important is to realise you belong to God. You have enormous value. Remember it, know it and live it every moment of the day.
Verse 11 continuous: 11… Run for your life from all this. Pursue a righteous life … a way of life to make sure that you walk in the middle of God’s road … a life of wonder, faith, love, steadiness, courtesy.
And then a command: Run hard and fast in the faith. “But how will I do it,” I can hear Monette and others ask, “when the waves do not stop crashing over my head?”
Maybe this advice will give you hope and courage:
- Say out loud: God made me, God chose me, God has a dream for me.
- Make sure you stay away from evil things.
- With everything in you trust that God will take you by the hand and walk with you through hellfire.
- Find places where you can make God’s love visible.
Maybe, maybe then your courage will rise up again and you will be able to face the world and your circumstances.
1 Timothy 6:11-12
Describe your struggles.
Do you want to end your struggling?
What plans can you implement?
Lord, I’m struggling. I’m struggling to keep my head above water. I really need your help. Please help me to listen and to do what You say. Amen.